[wickedwings]

i'm a young stroke survivor. i had a stroke over 1 1/2 years ago in december 2005. i did everything right. i was not diagnosed until october 2006. time lost is brain lost. it's horrible. i hate those "time lost is brain lost" commercials. i know it's important for people to recognize the signs of strokes. it's an insult to me because i was a mystery for so long. anyway, i was fortunate to recover fully, physically. but i never recovered from the complication that it did to my clinical depression. i had treatment-resistant depression since i was 20. i had a good medication that kept it manageable until i had my stroke, which messed up the effectiveness. ever since, i haven't able to find the right treatment for my condition. i've been living in pure hell since. wish i could get relief.

[wickedwings]

i posted twice before and they disappeared???? too weird. this is my 3rd post. hehe. i had a stroke 1 1/2 years ago and i've been living in purgatory ever since. i did everything right. those "time lost is brain lost" commercials insult me like crazy, even though i know it's important. i wasn't diagnosed until last october. i was only 33 when i had my stroke. now, i'm 35. i have treatment-resistant depression that was complicated by the stroke. i've been so dying for relief since. although, i'm fortunate to have recovered fully on a physical sense. my docs suggested shock treatments for my depression. after i had my stroke and already have brain damage, are you freaking kidding me, doc? ah well, i guess i'll stay in purgatory. i had depression since i was 20 and did everything i was supposed to do to keep myself well, including exercise that i always pay a huge price doing. i was cleaning my house all weekend before i had my stroke. weird, i know. docs found nothing wrong with me that would have caused it. i was tested for everything under the sun. so, they chalk it off to birth control pills i had took. i don't know, i sure hate feeling like i'm still a medical mystery. i lost trust in docs when they started freaking me out before my diagnosis a year ago. my life got stranger than fiction, as if i had one foot in this life and the other foot in the afterlife. to top it all, i've been deaf all of my life. docs have no compassion for the way i feel - vulnerable to the bone. sorry for the rant. i've been crying all over the internet, anyway, since i cannot find any relief whatsoever.

[Alffe]

Welcome to NeuroTalk WW...I'm sorry for the dx that brought you here.
Here is the link to our Stroke forum.

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=23

And here is the link to our Depression Forum...

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=37

You'll find lots of support there.

[Chemar]

hi
I just logged on and got 2 PMs from you, one with something similar to this post in it, so I think that what happened was that you had initially PMd rather than tried to post

all seems ok now

welcome to NeuroTalk


ps I see your earlier post here on this forum too so am going to merge them together here

[Doody]

Hi WickedWings. I'm so sorry to hear about your predicament. I hope you find something to help with your depression. My depression does respond to medication but it took awhile to hop on the right antidepressant bus!

Welcome to Neurotalk. It's a wonderful place.

[wickedwings]

((((chemar)))) thanks for your help. neurotalk does run a bit different. i do have memory retention issues from my depression, which is probably why i didn't remember the very first posting goes to screening before it appears.

thanks for your reply. i came here hoping i could find information on finding relief for refractory depression complicated by the stroke. i'm grasping at straws, really, since i'm getting nowhere near the right treatment.

[Doody]

Hi again Wickedwings. Just wanted to stop by and give you a gentle hug. A lot of us here understand how disabling depression can be.

[Darlene]

Wickedwings,

Hello and welcome to NeuroTalk. Great to see you have come to be with us. You will find a great number of caring members here willing to help each other as they are able. Again welcome, looking forward to seeing you around.

Darlene

[wickedwings]

thanks for your responses also. i appreciate it so much.

strange, that group hug icon is supposed to move..... oh, well. anyway, it's supposed move, but it's not and it's no big deal.

[KathyM]

Welcome Wickedwings

I hope you'll be able to find a way to feel alive again and see some joy return to your life. You'll find a lot of good hand-holders here on your journey to recovery.