Oh friend, I am so sorry that you are feeling this way.
insecurities are really hard to talk out of.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

i know it will work out and it will be better
bobby
you are a good person

Sending lots of prayers and hugs.

Mari

Sometimes when people don't want to engage with us, it's not because they don't like or love us, it's because they have a hard time dealing with mental illness…

I think a lot of people have a hard time talking to me because they're afraid to say the wrong thing, or they're afraid to hear what I'm going to say. It doesn't make them bad people, they just don't know any better, and it's their problem, not mine.

I'm sorry you have to go through this BF.
I hope your go-between is good, and is able to help you work this out

BF,
I really hope you can at least email the family member you had mentioned the rent issue with. At least mention to that person (in an email); that you may have misunderstood about the rent; but since there is not much left over, paying rent would really be a hardship and is causing you awful stress and worry.

Possibly your next of kin may just be uncomfortable communicating himself/herself and it has nothing to do with liking you or not.

Hopefully prayers and our concern will give you the added confidence to get this settled asap.

Gerry

yes friend I think what ger has said makes sense.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

i think a case worker for a go between is better because there might be the embarrassment factor working in your favor if there is one

That is a good point Bobby.

Also its not a family member who is in between both sides.

So I agree to the case worker also.

Donna

I don't want anyone to be embarrassed. I just am worried about my security. I don't wish anyone ill will in the circumstance.

I seem to freak out very easily. I wish that I didn't. It's hard to have a rational view of the whole situation when I'm freaked out, and don't have all of the facts. It's also bad if someone else that is trying to help doesn't have all of the facts, and they start to judge.

I should not try to fill in the blanks, because that's when the imaginations can be rampant, and the worse case scenarios shatter my thoughts. This happens worse at night.

Communication, patience, and love should be a factor in this situation. Assurance, and comfort should be addressed for me to not be at my wit's end.

I am getting so tired of my mental heath challenges, and hope that they will have compassion on me. I didn't stand in line so to speak to have these mental health challenges.

In the world that we live in, it's difficult to receive compassion from other people when they know that you are struggling with mental health challenges. Some of the words used are not very sympathetic. This is what I have experienced all of my life.

It's very painful when you heard someone giving their opinion of you behind your back when they don't think you are around. BF