It is not fair that we must carry these burdens throughout our lives. Life would be easier if people were better educated about mental illness and more compassionate

I hope that your relative finds that compassion and you can put your rent worries to rest soon

My deep fears have come to the top that were submerged deep in my subconscious. Am I Going To Be Abandoned? Are they going to cut the umbilical cord? BF

Dear BF,

Those are fears that reach our very foundations.

Do you have a case worker or pnurse who can help you right now?


M

BF
When you write fear of being abandoned; I wonder if you, without meaning to, you subconsciously appear to be stepping aside and not reaching out to them. Do you try to stay in touch with your nieces? Maybe your fear of rejection is holding you back?

It is so sad trying to figure out or come to conclusions on our own and seem to be unable to stop these thoughts from taking over. It really has to be a downer for you.

I wish there was some way to build up your self confidence. Know you are very important . Maybe in some way, I have been there myself and can identify with your emotions.

You are in my prayers.


Gerry

I seemed to have upset her last week. I don't want to do it again. I don't know what to do.

For whatever reason this has frightened me, and shaken me to the core. I'm more frightened than I was yesterday. I wish that my emotions would level out. It's like a continuous burden that I have no control over.

Thank you all for the prayers. BF

BF,
I know what you mean. That's too bad. I felt like that after I spoke with my brother a couple of weeks ago; I didn't mean to; but I think he was upset with me.

Sometimes we make what might never happen feel like it did and put ourselves through some very frightening feelings. There are times I am able to make myself push the fear away and convince myself I will deal with it only if and when it happens and not before.

When it gets too bad; I try giving it to God. He never sleeps.


Gerry

I know how it feels when fear and anxiety take over. I try to manipulate myself, and when I start having overwhelming fears, I try to remind myself that it's only catastrophic thinking, and sometimes that helps a little bit, at least for a little while. But sometimes there's nothing I can do about my anxiety disorders but call my pdoc, and she ups my meds. I know that you are dealing with situational anxiety right now, but could you call your pdoc and ask about better med control?

I do a lot of texting because I can edit myself better. If someone seems upset with me, I can always look back over the text to try to figure out where things went awry. Is texting an option for you?

I try not to mention my anxiety or bipolar disorders to anyone except one or two people. It's hard not to share that part of myself, but I find that people push away if I do.

I wish there was some way I could ease your fear and anxiety

I just cannot seem to get rid of these fears. I have been wrestling through three major fears. They seem to expand at times when I'm dealing with one. I cannot seem to think clearly, but my mind is unclear, and deep in my chest is a group of stunning fears that I cannot seem to shake. No one wants to hear my problems, and concerns in the family who I have left. My Dad, Mom, and sister have passed away, now my bol, and nieces don't want to comfort me. I feel alone, and cannot seem to unburden myself from my concerns. I haven't felt this insecure in years. I've been scared for more than a week now. BF

I hope your scared feelings lighten up.

bizi
(((((HUG))))

you have God. that is all we really have
Bobby