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Eva,
I am sorry you are driven to feel so helpless. All you can do at this point is give all of this to God. "Trust in Him".


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Dear Gerry
I ask for his hand every single moment
Like you said
Driven into helplessness
I'm having a hard time these past three day
Nothing letting up
Constant grasp for air
Love
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Default This day is coming to an end

A wreck I am
Keeping it to myself
Coming here when I just can't cry anymore
Just a little bit more
And I hope to fall asleep
My head want to blow it hurts so badly
I can't make things better
This I understand
The will to keep going
Heavenly Father
I believe it is
All your will be done
On earth
As it is in heaven
Feed me your love
Be my rock
Sooth my soul
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They cannot reach me anymore unless the write me old school
A difficult thing having to block you children
I will push through my day
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Eva,

Pray our Mother Mary will watch over them as our Heavenly Father entrusted her with His Only Begotten Son, Jesus.



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Having heard from my eldest was precious
I could always see in her what she couldn't see herself
If that be my gift
So be it

While speaking with her
And her awesome newest longest strive ever
She is a published poet
Got her first box delivered
Thought I would like to know

While on the phone
I hear my dog
Barking for his treats
A healthy feed dog
Veggies some restricted of course
As some are deadly to dogs
Barking away as Saraeve making her salad for dinner
Just thinking about him and am somber
Missing him with my heart
Missing him
To watch the pet segment while watching the news
Got me this morning
It was good to hear him strong in bark
Not complacent
Even with his disease
Cushing
He is fourteen years old
Getting up there
And need to spend time with him
Need it
Need his love

It just hurts terribly
When having him as a baby
Not wanted in the building
Although it is in the lease allowable if by doctors recccomedations
There is a place in my heart for our family pet
Let him go with my eldest
She needs him more medically speaking
He warns all by barking she is going into a seizure
A great dog we have as our furry family
Hearing him so strong in bark
Was a good sign he's doing good
Missing him
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hi eva. i hope you're having a better day today. just wanted you to know i was thinking of you. soft hugs.
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Having to deal with a rude inconsiderate neighbor
Since moving to this floor now having two bed room opposed to a studio literally one room three of us
On point
There began to be a sort of a problem
Not remembering the damage she caused to my floors
Having left her tub fill with water and forget and falls asleep
causing major water damage

Renters insurance I have
While the short lived time in the studio
I suffered water damage and the insurance was used for the vey first time having renters insurance since I was twenty two
I know a long time
Never having to have to use it
I was covered for the damages
And the owner matched what the insurance paid
As it wasn't much
On point

When coming to the ninth floor
And the situation I was in with this so called accident
would have been believable but other circumstances personal ones
Such as knocking on my door looking for drugs
Such for pain not once but twice and doesn't remember
After the flood into my apartment
My damage was NOT covered because it was to close to the last
situation on the sixteenth floor
That was a burst pipe

She forgets the start of our neighborly introduction
Back in march the noise that elimates from her bedroom
Right above my room
The layout exactly like mine
She is up and down all hours in a twenty four hour period
Mostly up in the evening

When it became out of control in volume
Dragging her furniture after 11:00 PM
Is unexceptable
And the sound of what i can just imaginge being like a
bag of pebbles in a sock and dropping it with rhythm
as to attract her dog
I say this because when getting our dogs attention we would use his squeaky toy
On point
After 11:30 news I turn off the TV meditate a bit
And she starts

Having gone to apartment twice at two in the morning
Was enough
I then took it to management
I was told by management to call security
This I did at 1:30 AM
Having just about falling asleep she starts
I have it recorded including calling the security guard John
and told him I was instructed to call him first

Well he calls me back
Begins to say
She was bloodshot and a bathroad on
"Like I woke her up"
I then told him about what I have done
Until
I was told by management to call him
With his insinuating
I am wrong
According to his "assessment" of someone who lives in her bathrobe is in my opinion an addict and alcoholic shows anger since asking her to please stop whatever it is she does after 11:00PM ISN'T unreasonable
We were suppose to meet sometime this past week
Called management
Nobody home
Then when I started up again
Having to live with the disruption and harassed
with malicious behavior
Has increased in intensity
For some who do terrible things
For blank and giggles
You fill in the blank
our security guard basically said
It isn't her
Yet did not want to listen to the recording
She is out of control at times

It took my child to tell him
My mother isn't hearing things
I hear it also

Why are some so warped
And have nothing better but be rude
and out of control
It's in the lease
To be respectful to one other
Never having spoken for any length of time
Just hello goodbye
The noise has got to stop
And calling security as I was instructed to do so the next time she does it
Did not turn out well
So what to do
I won't bother security
I will call the police
It just an aweful situation
What to do till Monday

No sleep
Will try and sleep now
She was just terrible
And security made his assement
Without hearing the recording
Wrong
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hi eva. i'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. i hope you can get some rest tonight. love and hugs.
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hi eva. i'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. i hope you can get some rest tonight. love and hugs.
My errors in spelling horrible
Did not edit
Got most of the stuff out
It was three in the morning lights out
after dealing with security
And was up just before 7:00 in the morning

I was upset writing
And my point I was trying to get across

Mental illness at it best
Having a GOOD understanding about mental illness
it is within my own family
Myself included
To recognize another
In other words some people under the influence
as I know the neighbor only by my personal experience
On the nineteenth floor was an issue for many in this building
I did not play the corrupt political game
Yet many talk
And I associate with nobody
Other then when I have to go out
If I rode the elevator two hundred times living here
In the last five years is much
But I will alway be courteous
Why she came looking for drugs
I haven't a clue
But I never gave her any
And when she did the alcohol just oozed from her pours
Let alone her breath
This at my door

Point

I shouldn't have to put up with this kind of rude
behavior
Heavenly Father working through me
Trying to handle it as gently as possible
taking into consideration her obvious problem

Why do I say that

Anybody seeking medicines outside of what their doctor prescribes to them
Is a sign of abuse if drugs given
Anything above and beyond what a doctor gives a patient
for relief of pain
I say this because that is what she asked for
I do not see on the outside any indication of physical pain
But I know very well
One could look just fine one the outside
and cannot see ones pain
And whatever the case may be
She knocked on my door inebriated

My daughter after having to hear what she does
Took it to security when telling me his assement
"She answered the door bloodshot eyes and a bathrobe"
Having said this to my child who took care of business confirming
the disturbance was bloodshot eyed himself just having his newborn and two other girls
Point
Anybody can have bloodshot eyes and throw on a robe at 1:30 in the morning
Point
She is up most of the night
And sleeps in the day
I can hear everything each footstep

It became an issue
When it wakes me out of sleep
Wakes my grandchild out of sleep then wakes me
This isn't okay
It is in the early morning hours
When most are sleeping
I turn the tv off at 11:30 after the evening news
And try to retire

So love thy neighbor
I tried by asking her twice to please stop
This action was fuel to her fire
All for blank and giggles
Simply no other reason

I will be meeting with a mentally ill woman
Let this not become a reason for here to continue
It is understood she isn't well to begin with
Yet I cannot allow her to continue to be disruptive
and it affect my dwelling
Unfortunately I cannot make it out into the world
My life taken on so many levels
And I do have compassion for anyone suffering
Whatever the case may be that has caused this behavior will be understood and stopped

Upon meeting with her in the very near few days
All I want to say to her is
WHY?
That all
Not let her or anyone to ever get the
better of
Me
I cannot give my power away
Living the way Heavenly Father would want me to
This is what I pray for
Learning to pray for others
And I am
Free of it
Amen
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Eva, be careful meeting this stranger in her appt, a corridor or even your own appt, be wary of bringing her in to your life. You already have so much going on. Is it possible to invite her for a coffee downstairs if your apartment block has one or in a coffee shop very near by if one not next door. You have much to share, but not with a stranger, be as open as you can without letting your guard down. Try to get over you are more concerned with your grandchilds sleep rather than your own disruption. Some people live to make others lives difficult, but she might be more ameniable to mending her ways if she can see the child is affected. Just please be careful, don't let her know you are vulnerable. We know only to well how unpredictable strangers in our life can be
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