hi biz,
reading some of your posts. i feel for you. i know how hard it is to stick to principles not for just 24 hrs but for days at a time.

try to be gentle with yourself. maybe pick ONE thing you would cut out instead of 4. or, to half the amt you drink. or, to stop the sneak drinking.

little steps at a time. and, the hardest thing is to just start. after you start it's easier.

not i'm the one to talk. because i have my own difficulties.
can i suggest too, that you go back a page or 2 of your thread & read your own posts. how do you feel?

best of luck. you can do it.

thank you both!
I drank some vanilla coconut milk this morning, it was good!
also added a bit of coffee to it.
I woke up very early which is not normal for me, jeff is away and I don't sleep well when he is gone.
bizi

Bizi, I reckon that NurseNancy is totally right, especially about being gentle with yourself and taking little steps.

This is not about me but in the early days of dealing with my alcohol abuse I would quite often slip up and beat myself up because of that.

My clinical psychologist offered me wise thoughts about this; "Please don't be so tough on yourself. Remember that it is just a lapse, not a relapse. Keep going, you are doing well.".

I found that empowering and hope that you will as well.

Thank you kiwi!
I am not trying to abstain, my goal is moderation which has not been going to well to be honest.
At least I am still committed to not drink and drive, not one sip!
bizi
better is better
It is trivia night so we shall see.

I really need to get serious about my weight.
This was my day:

3 cups of Coffee with half and half and liquid stevia.
Ate Brunch at a diner:
3 scrambled eggs with sauteed spinach and 1/4 cup of black bean salsa
with a side of brocolli
Dinner:
salmon and 3/4 cup edamame
4 of each at 12oz 6.5%alcohol beers.
I don't drink every day....
friday nights we played trivia in a bar at whole foods, I drank 3 pints of beer and ate a whole 12 inch pizza all by myself.....
the friday before that I just ate all of the toppings and left the crust so I know that I can do that. I just need to figure out how to not drink 3 pints of beer there. I think I would be shocked at how many carbs are in the beer that I drink. I need to research that so I know.
Mostly I need to get serious about dieting again and thinking about getting into better shape.
I have been strict with low carb before and have lost weight. I put on 20 pounds since november and I know it is because of eating and drinking.

Think that I need to get serious and commit to counting carbs.
August 1st monday is a new month great time to start.
wish me luck.
bizi

I just researched it and founders porter has:
216 calories and
22 grams of carbs!!!!
for one beer!
I knew it was high....
I had 875 calories and 88 grams of carbs of beer today!!!
sigh
bizi

I started to count carbs and got overwhelmed.
I wrote out what I ate :
3 cups of coffee with cream and stevia
Lunch: 8oz of fish with a little thai carrot sauce on top, cup of sauteed red cabbage, cup of steamed brocolli.
dinner: 8oz bone-in pork chop grilled in grape seed oil, cup of green beans. snack: 28 almonds, 1 dark chocolate truffle.
I could easily get hypo trying to document each bite I took and just forget about trying to calorie count!
I am already spending a great deal of time on the computer.
I pretty much know what foods have what in them so I will just try to eat clean and avoid simple carbs. Eat as many veggies as possible, protein with every meal. (I only eat 2 meals a day, with a snack in the evening)
Choice for desert to night:
apple or lindt Dark chocolate truffle (blue ball one).
The truffle only has 5 carbs so it won!

Jeff just asked me if I wanted to go get a beer at whole foods.
(his beer has 400 calories)
I told him no hesitantly.
I did not tell him that I have started this diet.
I am hoping that I will be able to stick to it this week, until we go to the beach on the 12th.
That gives me 11 days to try to be good.

Bizi, I agree with you about not counting calories. I reckon that you are eating really well - a mixture of protein, a range of veggies and nuts (they are great as a snack - good for healthy fats, proteins, minerals and dietary fibre - I often snack on cashews or almonds).

Well done .

Thanks kiwi I appreciate you and your support.
bizi