Joely, keep your head up and stay strong. I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost my mom in 2008 when I was 13 years old. Now I'm 18 and even today there are some hard moments in our life where we only want our most loved, near as, at least to speak with them, or hug them. You must know that she would not want to see you sad because shes gone. And she is there, she is still in your heart. Mine is.