hug accepted and returned and don't ever Ever feel bad about going off on a tangent. you did it. I liked reading what you wrote. not that I want you to suffer but at least I know i'm not going through this nightmare alone. lost a high paying job, most all my friends, and family thinks i'm a junky or a psycho for going on about how terrible this horrible illness is!! I hate it and I wish they would find some kind of cure or better treatment. I appreciate all the comments and I will try some of the suggestions. we all have to hang in there with the help of each other because we matter. we are people just like everyone else except that we are sick and in need of help and comfort.