Lovely mandi, I think writing it all out is very therapeutic...

I wrote this a while ago. Makes me cringe a bit now tbh lol, but at the time it was cathartic and did help a lot: I had been playing the Moonlight Sonata, in lots of pain, and having a wee cry all the while...it is a sad but beautiful piece of music. I love Shakespeare, but I must apologise to him! It was just the mood I was in...

The Beast

If music ease, or soothe my pain, then play.
And play, and play, and play again,
If thou can bear my fear and woe just one more time.

I see the beast upon my skin; it gnaws upon my very bones
Both day and night. So play, cease not.
Still not my hands upon the keys.

Yet sweet airs, as love, and gentle deeds
Too short a time do still his cruel watch upon me;
But try I must; play, and hush the beast.
Mere pause, for wake again he surely will.

So play, play on, and tread but soft upon the stair.
Play on I beg, and gently lull the beast to sleep this night.
..........

Bram.