Yes, it makes TOTAL sense FFM! I completely do empathize with how you must feel. It can be so hard for me to turn down help from anyone in my family. Not b/c of ME, but b/c I do not want to hurt their feelings. They do not fall for the old pride crap, lol. I accept their help when I need it, and I am ok with that now.

On the other hand, I would not accept anything more than I need, and they know that is fair, so they no longer try to dictate what kind of help I need. (even tho their intentions are always good, just as your mothers might be)

That is what your mom seems to be doing, although it is probably out of desperation to keep you healty for longer. (I can tell my mom feels desparate) I could be wrong, as I obviously don't know your mother. But, it is either that, OR she is control freak who feels it is her RIGHT to do things as SHE sees fit, and if she does not jump in, you will do it all wrong!

These are just my thoughts, and she might not fit into either category, only you know.

But neither one gives her the right to "pshycologically manipulate" you into doing something you are just not ready for, and you just have to say NO! even though you might feel the guilt will kill you, I promise, it won't!

Alot of people that do "pshycologically manipulate", do not realize they are even doing it, but some do.
Now, I hope all THAT makes sense! lol

AMN - As far as what you said, "I don't care, this is just how it is" kind of person", that is me also. I think the first and only time I even said "Why me?" was at my onset in 1993. I was completely paralyzed on my left side for months. I was in the middle of EMT school to become a paramedic, only 22 yrs old, and thought I might be like that forever. So, yes, at that time I was a little peeved

But, for some reason I just do not get angry about anything I cannot change, or when I can't point the finger! Don't get me wrong, I have my little pity parties at every relapse! Like I am surprised or something! lol