Hi Ginnie, thanks for the reply, I really can't tell you how great it was to actually have communication with someonw. I have been so isolated for so long and things are only getting so much worse. I have tried to find any help everywhere, unfortunately, I am always told that I rediculously fall into this "cut off" category where I don't qualify for anything and with my husbands medical its impossible for me to find any extra money. I took him in for an emergency appt with his psychiatrist (3rd dr he has had in 2 years) so he could see the "mental state" he has been in and I begged him to do something or at least give me something to give him when he is uncontrolled - actualy got same rediculous excuse of office policy, don't issue anything addictive etc, he didn't even try and get him out of this ccomplete psychotic break he clearly has been in and how extremely "unsafe" this is for both of us. I feel sick. Will write lter, thanks again.