In order for a suicide to be impulsive...one must have immediate access to the "solution" to the pain. Michael did...he had a gun right there. He had a permit to carry it for his job.

That's why I hate hand guns...easy access...very wrong decision.

Only this week did we learn that had he lived, he'd be the grandpa to a baby boy. How proud he would have been of that. Instead of enjoying his grandchld, he's left a legacy that he wouldn't have wanted. If only he had stopped to think! So what should only be a joyous event, is tinged with memories and pain.

My husband wondered why the baby wasn't named after our Michael. Who would want to name a newborn after someone who committed suicide? Put in that light, he agreed with me.

So the point is...don't kill yourself. don't leave those left behind this "forever pain."