Alffe

It always sounded like an impulsive act to me too. It's why I stay away from narcotic drugs and alcohol - impaired judgment. It's the main reason I won't allow a gun in the house - too quick and easy.

I don't trust myself when I get depressed. My depression isn't a clinical mental illness - it's due to being terrified about the future. No pill or therapy will change my future. My depression surrounds my physical illness, but it's not really caused by my physical illness. There's no pill to cure my illness. My best bet to avoid suicide is to remain clean and defenseless.

I'm so sorry you had to lose your son in such a horrible way. I appreciate you sharing your story of Michael with us over the years. If you hadn't, chances are I wouldn't be here.