Hello Friend,
My heart bleeds for you it's a terrible time for you and it's very real. It's time to get serious professionally help. Not just a counselling session once or twice a week but some serious help. IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT that things have got this bad and most people get to this point at some stage in their lives. I hope you have family around you that understand what you are going through, if not I hope you have faith and can go to your church who will support you. I am always here. The best thing that was ever said to me in my times of total crisis was " Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" and they are the best words of advice I have ever received and I would like them to be words that stay with you always. I wish you courage, strength, hope and inner peace and I will pray for you. Please keep in touch and let me know how you are going. Your never truly alone Leanne