Hi all,

I am a 50 years old male. I am a professor at a private university. I am married with 3 kids.
I am strongly suspecting I have an early onset of PD.
I went to see a neurologist this week, and ask if I had PD. He replied categorically no. But I am still not convinced he heard me right about all my symptoms. One thing he said that left me doubting his diagnosis is that if PD tremors start, they will never stop. I am convinced, from my internet readings, that this is not true. And if this is not true, then his whole diagnosis is worthless for me.
Anyway, here are my symptoms, and I am hoping someone here might recognize how it all started for them and help me clear my doubts.
I had several episodes of tremors in the right hand mostly. Sometimes the tremors also occur in my legs, and even deep inside of me. I can "feel" the tremors. I am an extremely anxious person. I always dread change and life in general. I was a very happy person until fairly recently.
I had a few nocturnal panic attacks in the last year. On the first occasion, I thought I was dying. It was horrible. I run to the emergency room, they did all kinds of tests on my heart and found nothing wrong. 3 days later, I am back to the emergency room again. A doctor there prescribed me some medication. I don't remember the name but it's a benzodia-something. It did the trick instantly. I was able to relax and sleep without the panic attacks being triggered again. after a few weeks on this regiment, I decided to do some internet research about the medication I was taking. It turned that this medication is extremely addictive and very dangerous. So I stopped it cold turkey. It was ugly though. I would shake uncontrollably, have all kinds of weird things happening to me. But I am off this crap now.
Some months ago, I started having difficulties sleeping. I would toss and turn for a while before I could go to sleep. I didn't think much of my sleeping issues until lately. I now can't sleep at all. In fact, the only way I can sleep is by popping pills in. And even with pills, it's a few hours of sleep at most.
2 weeks ago, I had a big fight with my wife, and I got so stressed out and anxious that I could not sleep. I ate very little and started losing weight. I lost 12 pounds and still with no appetite and no desire to eat as much as I used to. With a couple of days of sleeplessness and sever anxiety, I started to notice a serious tremor in my right side. It lasted 2 days and then subsided. I also started sweating on my head profusely. I also noticed something interesting: I needed to tighten my biceps to be able to write properly or punch keys on my computer. In fact, my biceps are now very tight. As if I work out a lot. And I don't work out at all. I started walking lately and do some push ups. But nothing that can build such tight muscles.
I go several times to the bathroom to pee at night. And I know it wasn't because my bladder was full.
I had an endoscopy performed on me 3 days ago, and the doctor told me that my colon was contracting. He said it should be relaxed. He asked me if I had some anxiety, and I told him I had so much I don't even know how I was still walking or talking.
After a few sleepless nights. I went for a long walk and iI was exhausted. I was like in a fog and had a hard time talking. My voice was a little softer than usual. I don't know if it's because of the sleeplessness and tiredness or because of a possible PD.
The neurologist has ruled out PD after holding my hands. Bending my limb muscles. Tapping all kinds of muscles with a hammer and asking me to walk back and forth several times in his office.
I am convinced that I have PD, and even the opinion of a neurologist can't convince me.
Anybody can help out and tell me if I am right or wrong.