I don't know all the answers but I am a Stephen Minister and have done counseling for people that are in grief. Grief can be from losing a loved one, divorce, a move, an illness, or anything you have lost in your life. I was commissioned in 2001 with the Methodist Church. If you want to talk, I'm here for you and of course, everything is private if that is what you wish. God be with you with many Blessings.: