I am trying. I know it will get better in time. But that doesn't really ease the hurt now. ya know? It just seems cruel to me to get pregnant so off chance and then turn around and have it ripped away... I have opted to have a D&C which is scheduled for Thursday. That's if I don't miscarry by then. Im kind of hoping not. I would like to have it done in one fell swoop so to speak. I know I just cant stand this waiting. It's nerve wracking. There is no heart beat and it has not developed beyond 4 weeks so we know it's not "viable"..... I just....I just want it over now...my heart cant stand this pain much longer