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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: canada
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: canada
Posts: 553
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Ed.....me too. It is very, very hard, isn't it? It is important to grieve, because you have lost something. I have grieved a lot and continue to do so...little things (like bending down to tie my shoelaces, which provoke symptoms and dizzyness) to big things....friends, sports, my abilities, my career, etc.
My spouse and some close friends have almost convinced me, as Mark suggests, that I am still the me I was before my head hit the ice.
With the passage of time, and progress, sometimes I almost believe them. But there is a wee bit of me that is gone forever....a wee bit that is hard to explain to people, even those close to us.
So I understand. Hang in there. It gets better slowly.
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What happened: Legs pulled forward by a parent's hockey stick while resting at the side of the rink at a family skate....sent me straight back. I hit the back of my head (with helmet) on the ice, bounced a few times, unconscious for a few minutes. September 11, 2011. Off work since then…I work part-time at home when I can. It has been hell but slowly feeling better (when I am alone☺).
Current symptoms: Vision problems (but 20/20 in each eye alone!) – convergence insufficiency – horizontal and vertical (heterophoria), problems with tracking and saccades, peripheral vision problems, eyes see different colour tints; tinnitus 24/7 both ears; hyperacusis (noise filter gone!), labyrinthian (inner ear) concussion, vestibular dysfunction (dizzy, bedspins, need to look down when walking); partial loss of sense of smell; electric shocks through head when doing too much; headaches; emotional lability; memory blanks; difficulty concentrating. I still can’t go into busy, noisy places. Fatigue. Executive functioning was affected – multi-tasking, planning, motivation. Slight aphasia. Shooting pain up neck and limited mobility at neck. Otherwise lucky!
Current treatments: Vestibular therapy, Vision therapy, amantadine (100 mg a day), acupuncture and physiotherapy for neck, slow return to exercise, magnesium, resveratrol, omega 3 fish oils, vitamins D, B and multi. Optimism and perserverance.
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