Just seeing you list those meds scares the crap out of me.

I have been and continue to be terrified to get on pain meds. I am still fairly young and can't imagine getting on meds now and possibly never getting off them. Side effects scare me.

I keep saying I am getting close to giving in, but my throat swelled just reading this list of meds. so I don't think I am close at all really. I have refused to accept it....but the fact that I am even talking about it says things are changing.

so depressed.