I am still moving forward. I'm seeing a lawyer on Monday Aug. 20 to discuss how I can get my hands on some of our money. Haven't quite figured out where I'm going. I have mentally detached a lot. Last night he forgot to lock the door again!! He didn't even latch it. I reminded him that someone could come in, rape me, slit my throat and rob us. I don't think it registered...he was full of excuses.

I don't have any family...just second tier relatives. So I am quite alone. I'm still going to a therapist and a group. Thanks for the nudge. There is no way I can stay married to him.

We own 1 1/2 acres and one of the lots is empty. I am thinking if I can get my half I may build a small house on the vacant lot!

He is going overboard trying to be nice, but he still doesn't have the emotional piece. Saturday is his 50th birthday. I got him a gift certificate (regretfully) but nobody else really cares. Thanks for your response LR.