I am at 18 months pcs and truly find it had to believe that I still can't work.

I remember reading in one of the books that you have to respect your healing time. I think this is the hardest thing for me. I am an A type and a big planner. The unknown is hard to plan for.

Being single the isolation is difficult and although I have three teenagers at home it is not quite the same as adult company. I still don't drive and I miss having that freedom to just get in the car and drive somewhere. The car is a very different place for me.

I am improving and getting better and I will continue to progress, it is important to remember how much you have improved, it is easy to loose sight of this.

We have a lot of time to think and I feel lucky to be alive and to really look at what is important to me in life.

Mourning your old life is important but remember you are still bringing a very important aspect to your new reality....you!! with all your talents, passions and loves. You still have a lot to contribute and offer even if it is not what you are use to.

You will still be improving and you may go back to your old life and learn new tools to adapt to your health issues. There may be new opportunities available to you in teaching which will fit in better with your health situation.

I think fall is a time where we all naturally feel we get back to reality (school, work etc.) and it is very difficult when you feel you are being left behind.

Good luck and stay patient. I am very fortunate that I am surround by really good professionals who keep me pointing forward and looking at new possibilities.