Thanks BF, Waves, and Mari--you guys always make so much sense. I think I do need sleep and rest etc.... But I am restless too. I need groceries from being away from home and haven't gone to resupply because I just couldn't. I just don't want to be in the urban area anymore. The plan was that I am supposed to go between the rural and urban until next March when I put my house on the market. I was so at peace out there in the rural no one knew me and I liked it so much. I don't think I will make it until next March. I want to go now. I want to cry just thinking about it. I felt so much safer. It is all so green and lovely, less buggie, less humid, much less busy and so much safer.

Today I shopped a bunch on line at 0300 this morning. I know it is because I am so put of sorts and I am looking for comfort.

Life is so much more complicated than it used to be.

Thanks guys.