Tonight it just hit me really hard again. I keep thinking that losing my baby was my fault. The medications or whatever... I just really wanted my baby. So So SO much.I keep remembering when the doctors first thought I was having some sort of problem.

I prayed so hard. Promised ANYTHING...just let me keep my baby. And now...
Now I just feel so utterly empty. I am crying, just wondering why? I am a goo mother, I'm finally with a man who is a good father. Who would support my and our little one. It just not right

It breaks my heart, all the things I'll miss....I just wanted my baby so badly...