Thanks. The military (the VA) does have doctors, but I have been through a ton of them. They like the easy, go get the medication and do what they are told patients, but I am a little difficult because I question everything, and I am paranoid. I'm not the easiest patient, and though I give people the benefit of doubt, the moment I lose trust, well, it isn't pretty. Problem is, I tell everyone upfront, and most are up to the challenge for a time, then well, either they give up on me, or run out of ideas.

But that is what I go for treatment for... so basically I get 'punished' but having the problem I am doing for help for. I tell them I am a rabbit, I hop like a rabbit, I eat carrots and have a little ball tail, but the moment I act like the rabbit, they are like: Stop being a rabbit. Well, I'm a rabbit, I can't. (and for those of you reading this thinking I think I am really a rabbit, it was just an example).

There has to be some doctor who can deal with people with the problems I have? I am going on 9 months now without treatment and I am getting med refills from my Primary Care doctor.

I guess that is why I was asking for a name of a real person (it can be Private messaged to me) in the NYC area. I'm a challenge, and sadly, I know it.

But I also am a really nice person who helps others, I just cannot get help for me.

More later, back to work for me...