Where in Florida are you? I am still here to talk to. I am also willing to call you and talk. PM me for #. You are not alone. I still am thinking about you. I do want to try to help you. If you are in an unsafe place with your husbands moods, call 211 on the phone. There are professional there that will respond to you and offer some help. Any time that moods become scary you should do something to get him some help. There is also the Baker Act, where he can be seen in a hospital and evaluated. This does sound like it is more than what you can handle at this time. Keep in touch. Let me know where you are. ginnie