I am so very very happy for you. I know that you will recover both in mind and spirit. I don't know how we break the cycle of depression for each of us, but I know what broke mine. I was so angry, it cost me friendships. Mad at life, mad at my situation, horrified at some of my family.
I have a story to share with Neuro Talk and you.
I was really down, went for a walk on the beach. For once my ankles were not hurting. Many were walking the same path I was on. I focused on forgiveness, and kept asking the creator, "what am I suppose to feel?" How do I learn to forgive? and how should I feel about all these things?" "I am sick of hurting!," tell me how to feel!." There was a shell cup down on the path I was on. Not natural to these parts. I picked it up and inside the shell written in silver marker was one word..... The Word Was "JOY".
Since that time, my depression vanished. Keep right on that path you are on. We learn so much from each other here. Get well soon. ginnie