Wow, you're a strong woman-and I'm glad you took the time and talked with your loved one.
I sometimes feel as if I'm in permanent PMS mode Then I take a few moments to do a gratitude checklist and realize how blessed my life has been even with this stupid health stuff. I am loved by wonderful people; I have a great DH who is my best friend; I have wonderful kids, and in this day and age that is a lot to feel thankful for.

I try to begin each day with a thank you to the Creative Spirit for a new day, and ask for strength to love, serve and live my life to the fullest. By 10 am it's difficult to remember that But I try...

I'm glad you sat and talked about goals. That is one thing we never did, and I regret that. DH's sister & BIL sat down and made 5 year goals. They've had a great life. We just kind of meandered along like pin balls...now we are more active in talking out our future, especially now that the inlaws are at rest.

So, I am glad you have resolved some issues...it's difficult as well, living in someone else's home. Once you are on your own, you & BF will be able to set your priorities in your home, which is so much easier.

Now you need to take care of yourself and figure out what the heck you can get done to feel better!!