Mari,
I don't know what to expect day to day. Today I am super anxious because I have to go into D.C. To the Vet Hospital. I want to throw up just thinking about it. I have a ride, thank god. I meet my VA doc and I no longer have a primary care doc on base. Scary, change.

The will. Well the lawyer made me wait 45 min. Holy God, I can't handle waiting. When he finally called me I cried in his office. It was super easy. I filled it a form prior to and no husband, no kids, made it really easy. I was I. There for 20 min. They are going to draft it up and I will go in and sign it.

I bought a fire box a while ago for all of my important docs, banking, adoption, divorce decree etc...then I found an article on how to plan for your death so family doesn't have to figure it out. My accounts, debts, special money set aside for my nieces etc...I made files, put them in ziplock bags and loaded em up in the fire safe.

I think I am going to try not to put too much into my mood and just roll with it. I have been in mayhem w events, I am just going to let things simmer down and take care of myself the best I can.

I do anticipate depression, and anxious depression. Shoot, my ears are already ringing this morning.