Im sorry for your pain.

This post is scary. My mom asked me why don't I get on pain meds. and my answer was addictive and dependence once I start and this post confirms that. I guess eventually one day I may have to give in to pain meds but that wont be until I have to. Like you said, the thought of taking it the rest of my life when I am only 45 scares me.

This whole thing scares me. Our lives revolve around dealing with our pn and I wonder what my life will be like in even 5 or 10 years, but mostly I try NOT to think about it.

I wish for you pain free days.