wolfie was banging on my door tonight!

Saturday, September 14, 2013

WEll it was more than wolfie, it was anxiety, awkwardness, feeling like a fish out of water, it was really uncomfortable.
It was the second saturday of the month.
ART walk in our community. 6-9pm art galleries open their doors and have free wine and snacks.
This is the first one that we went to in a long time. first one where I have not drank.
Instead I picked at some of the food at each gallery. Cream cheese and pepper sauce on a cracker or two. Then some cheese , then a couple of carrots, then there was chocolate 3 little dark chocolate dove squares. then some grapes.We ran into people that jeff knew and that made me uncomfortable to just stand there. I do have social anxiety issues.
Saw some really great artists work.
Then watched for a bit some out door artists actively creating images on a projector to display on the side of a building so we could watch, 3 different artists side by side. It was really creative.
I felt much more comfortable being out of the gallery's and outside. all of the anxiety disappeared.
wolfie disappeared! I am still sober and feeling great that I turned down the free wine because I don't drink any more....easier said then done.
but I survived.
Hubby did not understand my anxiety. I tried to explain and he listened.
It is hard to explain to someone who doesn't have a problem with alcohol or social anxiety issues.
calling it day 34!
bizi