Don't feel alone. We all have been ther or are there ourselves. We know what you mean. I went almost 10 yrs undiagnosed because all my Drs thought I was an addict after drugs. The only thing we can do is stay as positive as we can. Don't feel like you need to keep it all bottled up. We WILL let you vent if you need to. We have all done it. Geeze I did it just a couple days ago after not being on here for a while and everyone on here is very encouraging. Also talk to your family and tell them how you feel. I hadn't done that in a long with my wonderful husband and when I did he told me if I did it again he was gonna hand me over to my grandmother. Not a good thing lol. She is 94 been through 2 thigh repair surgeries and would tear me a new one for not talking. So talk to them. If they won't listen we are here. Its not as good as having someone there to hold you if they can without hurting you but we are here. Keep smiling and don't let it get you down too much.