i don't know
someone tell me please
please tell me i'm not
over reacting
i open myself up
no this is me
the person who has learned
i have learned
i wouldn't say who
but for the person
says
to me
"you do not want to tell them everything"
this be someone who is involved
i will certainly not have been
able to have cared for her
as i wouldn't have been able to
care for her including holding her
i ask you this child has been
the happiest demeanor
all that encounter this child are
pleasantly surprised at how she
entertains herself
with her legos
i have been tugged this
way and that way
with limitations
for i am not of any kind of money
i have been in a predominantly no
luxury of affording a lawyer was
never in my cards
oh friends
make no mistake i had
several chances to marry into
that
but because i am true to myself
morally
not to mention
i have never had the
opportunity to Love
i had a job to do
and i promised myself
i would never marry for
if there is no love
i need to feel a spark
in my tummy
all the opportunity with all the men
i served them breakfast and dinner too
then there was the time i was doing three
duties in a day as my children were older
around 14ish and down
waitressed full time cleaned and baby
sat rich wanna be in the Bergen County section
and night school acquired two medical certificates
yeah it seems as if i
were witchin
but i'm not
if my children ever tried "i can't do it"
i have a speech for them
well just got word caseworker
contacted my daughter
and said
she this time was unable to
provide a ride for us
no biggy it will cost a fortune
to park i have extra eyes in the
car we will be fine it is about a 20 min.
on the side streets
just called psychotherapist
left a message for him to fax
letter for my public defender
oh jeez i hope i have all my ducks in a row
just in case they should deny me temporary
i called my maternal parent if she would
take care of her

you know my ability to be a chef in my own home
has been ripped from me in an instant my 2nd
operation sealed that permanently


i am in a fog

no paperwork on the accusation to date
so this public defender was short and rushed me
off the phone

i have represented myself on many occasions
at one time the city trying to get me fired
my rebuttal letter was so well put together
this with the help of my daughter
went as is to my boss "the Mayor"who still holds seat

we'll be in the path of JESUS CHRIST as i will be
protected
in Jesus name
i eva BELIEVE

someone who cares
AMEN!
AMEN!
AMEN! AMEN! AMEN!