I'm not sure what you are asking for.

Erika's suggestion to contact a PharmD if you are truly interested in pursuing medication in an effort to hopefully stall progression of this miserable is a good one, imo.

If you want those of us who believe in the value of trying every available medication option we can to share our thoughts just let us know.

It kind of sounds like you have made up your mind and if that is the casse and you want positive stories or encouragement not to medicate, there are many here who will support you and can share their thoughts on why they have chosen that path.

Good luck with whatever you decide.