Thank you everyone I think I have found a place where I finally belong such great advice and the support from you guys are fantastic,you have made me feel that I can get thru this and not alone.I do have to say my husband is the best bless his heart he is younger than me but has stepped up to the plate like no other,I have 7 beautiful grandblessings and 3 wonderful children you guys have given me hope I feel so much better this morning.Thank you