Im 26 wks. 14 more to go, unless I decide to breastfeed. To day has been a booger. I hope its better tonight. I tried calling mental health here on base and they wouldn't help. Just told me to go to a psychiatrist on my own dime. Its like everyone is afraid if my baby has 2 heads its their fault somhands off. Don't touch the pregnant person. I feel like a pariah. I even called the crisis line because of how I feel and the lady kept saying your pregnant they don't want to be sued. Im not a sue happy person. Ive never even threatened to sue anyone. She tried to tell me it isnt as bad as im making it out to be. My pain isnt as bad as I say. I know I can't take the meds right now. I wish I could get away from them permanently. She didnt even know what I meant by suiside disease. Just kept saying its not that bad. Shes a paraplegic and her pain is the worst in the world. Even amputees have higher pain levels than I do. I tried to explain to her about the studies done and that rsd is the highest one besides terminal cancer. She said dont believe everything you read. So I try to reach out for help and get slapped down. Its kind of like a child asking for comfort and getting hit. This is why I don't trust Dr's. I even told her about drs telling me its all in my head and all I wanted was a free high. She said well they might be right. Why do I still put myself in this position. Expecting help and get slapped down.