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Originally Posted by MDinpain
Mine is totally messed up!!! I usually pass out with boys for 30-60 minutes. Awake at 9:20. Back to sleep at 12:30-1. Awake 4-5 hours later. I am getting used to it. Back sore - nerve root referred pain from what I've read. Goes away when I get moving.
I drink caffeine like nuts then a couple beers before bedtime. I'm just surviving!!!!
Today i had the day off. Dropped kids at school. Drove to northern Marin county and took longest bike ride of my life - 50 miles. Scs at high power. That's the beauty of the bike. I am clipped in. I have good core strength. At that setting my walking would be zombie like. On a bike- no prob!!!!! Picked kids up played fort in the woods. My 7 yo finally loving reading.
My life was awesome. Then terrible. It's closer to awesome than terrible now. Each day is a battle. Today the enemy, my CRPS, crushed. He will be back tomorrow to mess with me. I'll fight that rat bastard.
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dear MD
i love you upbeat attitude
i a 52 year young woman
was beaten down
i a active woman
love volleyball
a mother of four
divorced young
stayed single to date
waitressed 5 nights a week 9-10 hour
did that so i could be available
for my family need be
only by the grace of God and
my will to be responsible
for my children
i am not boasting
about my struggles
i had no clue how
at this point of my life
working as a city employee
and a chance to then begin
things like a pension, benefits
paid time off paid vacation
but most importantly a break
on my body
as i was all by choice alone
with my babies
now a mimma (grandmother)
it brings me to my not having the strength
to hold her when she was born
to pick up a knife and cook
my passion taken
i served many people in my time
and to be stagnant in most everything
and to the point of having to change my
clothing i wear bras that i could slip my feet into
pulling it up even that is without pain
to read you kick butt squashing that monster
is a persona i once harbored like nothing could
take me down with all i had to go through in
my lifetime don't know if i would change anything
but my mind is like your body crushing that monster
are the meds i'm forced to be on
i so enjoy reading your kicking butt
may it prevail in your life and never stop
i lay in depression
pardon my expression have put some men to shame
as i am a doer doer doer may have taken me down
i wish your world and family a strength of loving
each other with just the simple things in life
such as taking your children to school
i have minimal ability to drive and cannot
drive my daughter to school since seventh grade
it made a big difference not for the better
PEACE BE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY
AND STRENGTH TO BATTLE THAT MONSTER
YOU GO MAN KICK THAT BASTARDS BUTT
someone who cares