on horses and at times on the approach and going over my brain would be screaming {MOTHER!!!!!*******!!!!!!} I got over, but that dratted 'sinking' feeling stays with you, makes you cautious till the next time. It's something that sticks with you for sure. Like you I like my body.....INTACT thank you!
Do you really TRUST this doc? Sounds like he was honest, but one guy's prognosis is not another guy's and the more 'rounded' the picture, the better or the lower your expecations can be? But, this guy is talking MAJOR bodily invasion and given all in all...what are the odds? Even, win, place, show or also-ran? Trust in a doc, especially a surgeon doesn't require a winning personality. Skill and honesty vis-a-vis in expectations and outcome...realistic, I guess are paramount about now.
You weren't wordy at all! You just put it out there in a far more candid way and with lots more courage than I could admit to doing!
I am Glad David was there to see and provide some very needed 'outside' observations...It takes that at times to help you SEE what you think will need to be done, in whatever way, with a better perspective. Our bodies are 'sneaky' in that we compensate in ever so many little ways....sometimes for good, othertimes not? When I worked with the horses, you really, really had to look, as they couldn't tell you their specifics...David is astute in this.
As for possible autonomic issues, WAIT, see what surgery can do...there are, as you well know, lots and lots and more factors that could be coming into play there. Many not permanent, which I fervently hope. Good things could result-in time.
YOU are one of the most objective and clear thinkers I know, and rite now you are as I was when the doc 'found A LUMP' in my breast...wait till all the tests are done and the 'jury' is in. Do NOT, promise me, waste too much energy on the What IFs....wait till you know which bear you are wrestling with? If ya need a hand to hold there are a heap of folks here to do so...NEW YAWCK Broad HUH? Hey! I'm a Joisey Goil! [That. I understand, is sort of Bronx-speak about Jerzee-ites]
Take your time letting all the 'fudge' to sink in...Get the tests done ASAP so's you can THINK on it in a better 'window' time frame as well. In my view, get them all the heck over with ASAP! I do know what you mean about those tests in the tunnels on the tummy tho...can't breathe for spit! HAD to be designed by men! [present company excluded, naturally!] Heapers of HUGS? - j