I do understand you about being nervous. It is not a fun thing to face. If you decide to go through the surgery, I can help with a few tips for the weeks following during your recovery. I came to NT for the exact same reason you are. I was terrified! It will be OK. I know many people don't get good results, but those that do, don't always post their good outcomes, they are out and about living life again. My pain levels are tolerable. Not 100% for sure, but a lot better than before surgery. I stayed with NT, because of all the great people I met through the years. Do you have a good support team? ginnie