thank you poetry, trying to relax, plus just sent my mom for valerian,

Mark the first place i went to for pt was 30 mins away, by the time i drove there, ( lifted light weights like 2 lbs) a little arm cycle just to increase hr a little, and the guy gave me just an exercise looking at a card for vestibular.

I have since tried a closer pt where the guy said he specialized in vestibular, he gave me the same card exercise, but added balancing on one foot, one foot in front of the other.

i have since just been doing these exercises, plus a couple more gently at home because he didnt seem very focused on me, he was helping like 5 other people, also it was more exasperating driving there and bieng around people then bieng at home.

my mom got sent info about a neuro optomologist so i will schedule an apointment asap.

My biggest fear is that i have ruined my life because i didnt stop playing when i should of, i have felt the effects of concussion before, but this is a whole new world of extreme discomfort not just extra sleepy and hard to study, its a living nightmare Its breaking my heart because my parents keep suggesting nice things to do to get me out like even get a pumpkin or see a movie and its hurts my brain to exist let alone do things. i cant accept this is the new me. I will keep fighting for a year until i have to accept this is my life, but this is no way to live, if it gets even a lil better so that im not just reading a book to pretend to not be in hell i will be elated.

god bless,
sorry for being such a wining baby, i know no one knows for sure, but my parents are all ready growing tired of my agony, even though they are doing what they can.

Rj