I know it's tough. I'm one year post accident and still on the slow recovery road. About six months ago I was at my worst. What helped me the most was to let go of my past life and try to be hopeful and grateful. I needed to learn to be a new person. We can't go back and change this situation. And pushing through the pain and symptoms just makes them worse. Keep on trying to manage your symptoms. Let your ego go. Find new hobbies that are possible. Try to slow down your life and allow for as much healing as possible.
Good luck
Su