Thanks Mrs D and Susanne...

I have a lovely ground floor flat, a beautiful small garden and two fantastic cats. After several long term relationships I found myself moving to London and living alone - my choice.
Most of the time this is ok, if a little lonely. My close friends all live alone by choice too (we range in age from late 40's to mid 50's), quite unusual even in this day and age..
However, when something like this comes along, living alone becomes unbearable. I went part time last year (working 3 days a week).
As I'm off work with depression at the moment I can go for days without going out or seeing anyone. I think this is slowly improving as the anti depressants are starting to take effect. My particular school is a very stressful and difficult place to work so going back is going to be difficult.

On the physical front, I had a good night's rest, no foot pain or numb limbs, just a bit of dull toe ache during moving around this morning. This is great but gives me a false sense of security. I guess I'm just not used to the waxing and waning of symptoms yet..

Thanks again for responding so quickly. (I'm getting used to the -5GMT time difference now!!).

Karen x
PS Yes I am a perfectionist in some things. I like being in control of my body in particular (keeping fit, eating healthily, a history of anorexia...). As you pointed out, that's why I'm finding this so hard,