Jaded -- I am sorry you have to go through that. Know that you did nothing wrong but love your mom. We went through something very similar with my grandmother. It's rough.

I'm back.....! That's never a good thing. I tend to come back whenever I need comfort and the depressive/suicidal thoughts trickle back in (don't worry I won't do anything, I know better). The fact that they exist again though, I was doing SO good. Ugh. The stress just eats me up and the lack of sleep doesn't help. And the marital rollercoaster, blah. And the unemployment and financial woes... woe is me. Having a pity party up in here tonight. Playing depressing music never helps lure me out of it but digs me deeper into a comforting hole. I am optimistic this wont last this time. Last year was long enough to suffer through a funk. But I feel it trying and creeping in. ::::sigh:::::