I hate getting attorneys involved, but in your case it might be necessary. It does not sound like you have very good care initially. I hope it has gotten better. Your recounting of the events read like a nightmare . . .

Maybe we could enlist you to start a thread on your totem and spirit work. I use a lot of mindfulness meditation and deep breathing to assist with enduring my pain, but it does not address my spirit, with feels more broken every day.

I sure hope this levels out for you.