Wow, the phrase "life isn't fair" hardly covers it, does it? You have just really had some really crappy stuff happen to you. I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you. It sounds like you are a testament to the tenacity of the human spirit, however. What a strong person you are, and an inspiration to me! Which doen't mean you can't take a little time off to climb into be with a big bowl of Cherry Garcia ice cream and watch tv for a couple of days without showering or changing clothes or combing your hair. That usually helps me a lot. By then I feel so gross I have to get up, and after a shower I can sort of face living again. Well, this just stinks, and I wish it wasn't happening to you. I will be sending positive vibes your way,and holding your internet hand and stroking your internet brow. Wish we could make this go away for you. Best of luck for recovering emotionally from all this news.