Myelogirl,
Anger is normal and understandable, and venting is permitted.
The 5 Stages of Loss and Grief
These stages also apply to any life-changing event,
including chronic illness.
The question IME is
what to do with the anger and other negative emotions/feelings we go through. We can let them consume us, or we can channel/focus/use them in more constructive/positive ways.
The Japanese have a saying I try to follow:
Fix the problem—not the blame.
IME, playing the blame game doesn't help. It doesn't accomplish anything, and it can be self-harming.
In the long run it doesn't matter how you got where you are (medically) because it can't/won't change anything. You are where you are and can only look/go
forward from here.
I think there may be some folks here with some ideas on how to help you proceed and move forward. Some of that
may involve seeking out a better neurologist—I don't know. There is good information here on vitamins, supplements, and nutrition. There are years of experience & wisdom of past & present members in the forums and archives.
Like I said, venting is ok. Is there any way anyone here can help you?
Doc