Are you having back pain? Ok I know it sounds like a stupid question.

It is so difficult to have so much pain all day long and look fine - everyone says - you look so good etc and yet you have so much pain everyday.

I also get why you want to get away from everyone....it is like who wants to be around people who are "suffering" all the time. Even though friends and family love you unconditionally - it is still hard to put it out there everyday - or make excuses about why you can't do this or that....all the time.

There is so much to live for - everyday we can decide when we wake up to - "be happy" or to not live sad. To not allow the sadness to take control. It takes a lot of discipline and some good books (I like Joyce Meyer) she has written a ton of books that have helped me get out of the rut.

I will be praying for you - no matter what your religion or no religion - prayer works and you will be fine with all of us out here in the WWW loving you and sending positive energy your way.

Kelli