Thanks Nanc and thanks Bram. And thanks to everyone. I'm sorry you're all suffering so much.I worry about the suffering internal spread more than it killing me too I think. The thought of having to live with horrible pain is terrifying. I take alot of meds that help keep pain to a minium, but they make me like a zombie and have harsh side affects on my body and mind. And I worry that someday they won't work anymore and will need to have them incresase.
I don't think my stomach can tolerate any more meds. So I don't knwo what I would do then. I hope I don't get to that point. and the meds I worry waht the meds are doing to my body too. I've gotten other things from my weakend immune system from rsd. i.e. fibromyalgia, tooth abcesses, I don't heal quicky and get sick alot even the common cold takes me forever to get over and know I have oteopenia, in my right hip and it hurts alot. sometimes especailly in the mornign I can't move my right leg because my hip hurts so much. I have to lift my leg up to get out of bed. And my feet are swelling and other hand andmy left foot is getting shiny now. It's becoming harder to walk with my legs and feet. And it's hard tohold a cane because my hands don't grip well and hurt too. anyway, i have to check into this interstitial cystisis. maybe that' s why my stomach hurts so much. Well, I hoep you feel betterwith you health problems Nanc and Bram and everyone else suffering from this disease.And thank for being so understanding about my question. I was afraid to ask, and apperciate your kindines and not getting upset with me for asking. Take care.