PS - I said the quote "if you walked a mile in my shoes" today and shortly thereafter there was a sermon on church tv saying the same thing. But then it went on to say that we shouldn't judge but should just love. And then it said that even though we don't agree on things and think others are making a mistake, we should try to lovingly help them see the light. I can't help but think this was a sign from God. Maybe we should understand why we feel that we want to the pain to end, but maybe, like Tessa said, we have to find some good in the bad and try to carry on even though it hurts so much. I think the Big Guy upstairs was trying to tell me something. I'm sorry if I'm being a flip flopper but I think I'm going to have to agree with Tessa and try to fight this and try to live not think of dying. I don't want to die and I don't want anyone else to think about dying or suicide or any other termination of life. I don't even watch church tv, it just happened to be on and I really think it was a sign. So I hope you all forgive me for saying that I'm pro choice. I am changing that to I'm pro life. It's just my opinion but I hope you all someday feel the same way. I just don't get good vibes about being so negative. I'm not trying to be a hypocrite. I've just changed my mind. Thanks for listening and take care. PSS - The Giant's Won Today!! That's another sign to me that miracles can happen!!!