Thank you all for your replies, sorry haven't answered before today, just so difficult doing anything right now.

I am so, so sorry you are all going through this, it truly is beyond terrible.

I also didn't want to wash/brush my hair, brush my teeth etc, my husband also had to physically help me do it all.

Thoughts of ending it all over took me and how to do it, God forbid surviving or being brought back.
Right now I don't feel that way, those feelings have subsided but I know they are right there in the background, what a struggle.

I could feel the depression getting worse and worse (couldn't make myself go to the doctor) feeling suicidal for 2 months my husband literally dragged me out of the house and she could see how bad my depression was. My husband then told me he was going to call someone to get me in a hospital, he didn't know what to do. (Wouldn't have been very popular but now I know he just wants to help)

The increase of Wellbutrin has brought me up a little.

Thank you again, it does help to know I'm not nuts but sorry that others are going through this,hugs to everyone