I am sorry you hurt like you do. I am glad you reached out. It is so easy to get despondent when physically you are having a ruff time . Maybe it is time to seek your doctor, and really let him know what is happening to you. Don't give up. Go to the ER if you have to. TBI can and does get better in time. So many here on NT say that symptoms do get better. I know what it is like to come unglued. Sometimes the medical conditions we suffer, get the better of us. I think it is mind over matter. Do some good thing each and every day. One thing you like, a moment, a prayer, reading a book. Something that makes your day better. Focus minute to minute if you have to. Your child needs you, You need you. Find the direction you must to make your life better. Do seek help if you need it Ed, and know that you are not alone. Mark From Idaho, is a TBI injured person here, and very very knowledgeable about this condition. don't hesitate to contact him. He may have useful information to help you. I have watched his posts for several years now, and he usually can find something that may get you on a better track. I will be here to talk to. I do care, and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. ginnie