Oh Nanc, I only have a glimpse of how frustrating this must be for you! I could not drive for about 8 weeks after surgery caused mine. Then I got a steering wheel knob (ordered from auto parts store) and had to take Nucynta to get to my P.T. I know it hurts like ?*&($# no one can imagine, but please keep trying and believe you me I do understand those "meltdowns".